Just A Year Old

It's been a year for me being a Mrs. instead of a Ms. How's the marriage life so far?
I think it's been the same.. Nothing really change between us, only being stronger all the time. We know that lots of marriage among us is crumbling down. Many people look for another person to fill their heart. Like the old phrase that I always heard "the empty room that needs to be filled" and may I say, "what room?".. There is only our Master Bedroom and baby room (still in progress) the guest room is outside this house maybe for families..not for another person. It's fully booked. Even I try to stay away from our family to harmonize everything... Relatives, parents, friends are fine but usually we will meet outside this house.

You  must say that I'm a cruel person, actually I'm trying to explain that I hate cheaters. they always makes me down. I will make my boundaries.

Yet in the real life, people will say that me and Mr. is an easy going couple. Living apart for months now and yet we still be happy with what we have. And we're very truthful to our relationship.

Some people ask, "is it okay?" Yes we're okay with what kind of life we choose, we already make those decisions so it's our risk, but if you ask "is it hard?" We also will say YES... It's hard but somehow that will make us cherish every moments and live with it and try to have the trust.

It's not easy to trust people in distance. We can't see them, we can't feel them all we got is an internet connection and skype and sometimes the picture could lie. However the "touch" won't feel the same with monitor. When the internet down then your feeling also down.

It's just a year old marriage. Though we already feel that's it's been a long time that we knew each habit of our spouse. We never get bored of each other in the other hand we will make it through time.. and be together again at last..

Now, we're welcoming the new time, the other year to walk on, to make our journey more meaningful, to celebrate every moment. And pray, that God will be on our side, so we will find those - what we're looking for.

Enjoy!

Friend?

Arnold Glasow once was said, "A true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down."

Today I'm going deep down and somehow the one that I called true friend even make a leap and dance upon my misery and I just stumble, don't say a bit, just watch another drama glimpse in front of my eyes then I keep on watching till I'm stoned and really realize that she's just that!

In the other hand, a person that I always shove and push to stand away from my side, is being there and stay as a true friend. Weird!

I think this world is being mad, or it's just natural for everybody to take the most advantage you can get from the others.. Is it the rule from the past centuries or it's just there, just now?

I feel disappoint (of course) but in the other hand it's a revelation. My eyes wide shut and it's  just open to the real world... A person just knock my door and offer me the dictionary of truth then some part of myself just said it's my karma. However I tried my best to survive to this lunatic being, a sarcastic person and cynical acts of people. I have to survive.. I have to.


So my point is (beside talking bullshit about my feelings right now) You really really can't judge the book by it's cover, don't try to explain "what is friendship?" and describe it in life and only with words. Sometimes you cannot see the beauty within, sometimes we also blur about the rubbish behind the beautiful things, don't trust your eyes, don't trust your judgment, just seize the day and be creative about your problems, somehow you'll find out that you are your only friend and the time will make you wiser.

 Enjoy! (though it's hurt)